“Madness and death are his irreparables. Man does not choose. The absurd and the extra life it involves therefore do not depend on man’s will, but on its contrary, which is death.” (Camus)
It follows that if man does not choose and has no free will, then it is all up to fate and luck. And one has to “consent” to this. “There will never be any substitute for twenty years of life and experience.”
Meaning, I didn’t choose or decide to pick up what I picked up in terms of learning and life experience since finishing high school and starting college about two decades ago. It all passed and went by as if it was all a blur or an illusion. There was no choice or personal will in any of it.